THE GLASS HO– USE OF GRIEF

THE GLASS HO– USE OF GRIEF Welcome to widowhood. I’m giving you fair warning – this journey will be perhaps the crappiest you ever endure. This journey is difficult regardless of your kind of loss. It may have come as a shock; it may have been expected, regardless of your circumstances it is beyond painful. No words do the pain …

MEASURING THE PAIN…DEATH AND DIVORCE.

MEASURING THE PAIN…DEATH AND DIVORCE. Please stop….I beg of everyone. A few weeks after my late husband passed away was my first preview into the competitive world of, “what’s worse, death or divorce?” and it made me infuriated. Here I was, a newly grieving widow, dealing with the end of life stuff, shock, two tiny children and tons of grief …

MOMENTS WE TAKE FOR GRANTED

MOMENTS WE TAKE FOR GRANTED Moments We Take For Granted ~ Today I had the privilege to have lunch with a close widow sister who has been by my side since right after I lost Mitch. I was standing in the restaurant, waiting to be seated before she arrived and a young woman walked in with the cutest little boy …

LOVING BEYOND LOSS

LOVING BEYOND LOSS I would like to start this blog post by saying that this is not a blog saying that you MUST love again post loss. This is a blog post about how you CAN love again. Happiness is not tied to being in a romantic relationship, but if you do decide that a new relationship is in your …

AFTER THE KISS

AFTER THE KISS He kissed me softly and as he did, I tried to quiet my mind and stop the noise. I tried to live in the moment and embrace this new page in my story without expectation and without concern for what it meant to my past and for my present. I tried to enjoy that split second and …

10 REGRETS OF A YOUNG WIDOWED MOM

10 REGRETS OF A YOUNG WIDOWED MOM It’s so easy to look back on my past and see all the things I could have done differently/better. My life has always been blessed, but it took the death of my 37-year-old husband to realize how blessed my life was. At the time of Mitch’s accident, my young children were just 1 …

SIGNS FROM DADDY

SIGNS FROM DADDY Before I lost my husband I never gave much thought to signs from our loved ones. I guess its just one of those things that you do not consider until it becomes relevant to you. I grew up in a very religious environment and besides the traditional awareness I had no opinion one way or the other. …

A WIDOW DATING…THE LAST FIRST KISS

A WIDOW DATING…THE LAST FIRST KISS We met again, and again, and again. There were coffees, lunches, and hikes that all seemed to flow more smoothly than the last. He seemed confident in what he was looking for in a woman, and I could tell by the look in his eyes that I held all of the qualities he had …

BROWN EYED BOY

BROWN EYED BOY My kids go to school about a mile from where my husband’s plane went down. It’s an excellent school with a fantastic reputation, but for a few moments after Addy got a spot on the waiting list I had reservations about going there simply due to proximity. The airport is a busy one with 2 flight schools …

THE LAST NIGHT….

THE LAST NIGHT…. October 8, 2009 I arrived home from a business trip to Florida like I had so many times before. My corporate job kept me busy, traveling, and kept me very distracted. I walked up the busy terminal and through security at the Phoenix airport and on the other side was my husband and my baby girl with …